March 19th

i hate those fucking pictures because i hate your fucking face & remembering those stupid fucking kisses.



of course this is because i miss them all terribly.

oh i'm angry with you! i'm so upset with you i want to punch you! I want to just sit in your arms and cry. I love you. I want...so much. Why can't i take all of it back? I wish i could take everything i have now & go back six months & just redo all of that. I want to fix it. I know what happened. I know what needs to be said instead of those hateful & hurtful words. I miss you. Everything about you. Why don't you miss me too. If we both missed each other at least i'd have you in that sense. Ugh. I want to know why. It's not even fair. i hate this. I just want to feel you next to me again. you know penguin, i've done something every day this break. i wanted all of it to be with you. i hate to even say it out loud where someone can fucking see it, but when i went out with derek to see watchmen i fucking thought of you. The whole fucking time. We were supposed to see it together. I hate you. I hate you. D:

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i want you to hold me & tell me you love me. i want to forget about our past and start over. <3

i hate this.